I Can't Pretend That I'm Alright

It's a really funny thing, life.

There are times when you can feel incredible, like you're on top of the world. And there are other times when you can feel like you just want to crawl under a rock because nothing is worth it anymore.

I don't understand the reason that life is the way it is. I sit back and think about why bad things are happening so much lately, and I can't put my finger on it. I think about how I don't understand what I did wrong to deserve all this, but then I realize that it's not just me who feels this way. Bad things happen to everyone.

I just wish that things could get better. Not just for me, but for everyone that's having a hard time right now. I don't get why just sometimes things can't work out. All I want is to be happy, and that's really hard for me right now.

Plus, it doesn't help that the one thing I want more than anything in the world is never going to happen. It hurts so bad just to know that no matter what I do, I'll never get it. It seems foolish to even think about it and I really should just let it go after so long, but for some reason I just cant. I want it so bad, more than anything, and it kills me to know for a fact that I can't have it.

I feel bad thinking this way. I feel selfish because I know that there are a lot of other people who have it so much worse than I do. I have good friends, I have my famly, I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back and food whenever I need it. There are some people who don't even have that. So why do I complain so much?

Maybe it's just because I'm not happy with myself. I don't like the way I look and the things I do always seem to bother at least one person. I'm always so stressed with school and whenever I feel like I'm doing okay again, I get hit with bad news in some form. The fact that my mom isn't home that much and my dad and step-dad arn't around anymore don't help much either.

I think that I really should stop thinking so negative all the time. As hard as it is, I should think about the good times and be thanksful for all the things that I have in my life. It's funny, if you saw me in school or hung out with me for a night you'd think I was the happiest girl in the world. Isn't it amazing how a big smile and a lot of laughs can hide so much?

I just want to be happy again.

Cause we lost it all. Nothing last forever. I'm sorry I can't be perfect. Now it's just too late and we can't go back, I'm sorry I can't be perfect.

What's Wrong With The World?

I don't understand why bad things happen to such good people.
I don't understand why people have to die.
I don't undersatnd how someone can be here one day and gone the next.
I don't understand why the world is such a bad place.
I don't understand why life is so unfair.
I don't understand how there can be so much pain in someones life.

I just don't understand ...

R.I.P Stephanie.
R.I.P Clyde.
R.I.P Daddy.

I love you all and miss you so much

Let's See How Far We've Come

It's funny how a person can experience so many feeling all at once.
It's funny how things can change so much in such a short period of time.

Dinner with Honor Society and sleeping at Joyce's house were the highlights of my thursday night a.k.a start of spring break. We had fun and thoes boys are the funniest and sweetest ever. They'll deff. make it big.

Friday Night was basically a rollercoaster ride of emotions. Hah no, for real. It started out really sketchy and awkward at first. I started to get really upset, but calmed down when we got into the arena. Plus, I signed the boys bus lmao. But I wrote something really sweet unlike all the 'OMG NICK I LOVE YOUU PLEASE HAVE MY BABIES HERES MY PHONE NUMBER SO THE WHOLE WORLD CAN STALK ME OUT AND KILL ME BUT IT'S OKAY! ILL DIE FOR YOUR LOVE BABY"

I was really nervous while we waited in line, which was weird but I realized it was because I hadn't seen the boys since the end of December. When we got closer and I actually saw their faces I was fine. Mr. J was the cutest man in the world and gave me the biggest hug and told me it was good to see me. I really love that man. EAT IT ALI lmfao<3

I went up to Kevin first and got a HEY YOU! haha. He gave me a really good hug, thanked me for coming and told me it was good to see me. Now let me just say one thing, Nick's hugs are irreplaceable. I don't know what it is about them, but something just gets me every time. I got a 'hey! thank you so much' and a little back rub and then Kevin was like "let's get you a picture."

After the picture I told Nick and Kev how me and my best friend Ali (faggot) we're so proud of them and how amazing this whole thing is. Kev was like "Ah thank you so much. I know it's so crazy" Then Joe came up to me and gave me a hug and said it was good to see me and I gave him Rocco's gifts haha. Basically, that was it. Nothing that special, except for the smiles that I got when they saw me (minus the picture - go die)

Everything after that was unexplainable. I don't know what it was or why it happened but I just started bawling as soon as I walked out of that room. Truthfully I don't think I have ever cried so much in my life, and that's saying something.

I think it finally dawned on me that they made it so far. These thousands, even millions, of screaming fans with "Future Mrs. Jonas" shirts on is what they are now. There's no turning back, as much as I wish there was.

I'm so proud of them, yet I miss them incredibly. I feel like in the past few years I have lost so many people that were close to me, and now I'm adding them to the list. It hurts more than you can even imagine. And sometimes thinking about the old times, how I basically grew up with them for the past 2 years and all the good memories we've had, hurts rather than makes me feel better.

I think there were about 3 songs during the whole concert that I didn't cry and about 10 times that I said I couldn't watch and I wanted to leave. But you know what, I'm glad I didn't. I'm glad everything happened that night the way it did. I'm glad I cried and I'm glad I was upset. Because I finally let out my feelings the only way I knew how to.

Thank God for best friends. Thank God for Aliya and Joyce. Thank God that I can call this girl a faggot and she can call me a bitch and we still love eachother. I don't even know where I would be without them both right now.

It's funny how God works. Sometimes he makes bad things happen to make you stronger. Soemtimes he brings certain people into your life because he knows that some way or another they will have an impacton you. But just for the record the bad things that do happen; he makes them happen because he knows that you can handle them. Because you are a strong person.

Bad Day.

horrible
Definition: unpleasant
Synonyms: appalling, awful, beastly, cruel, detestable, dreadful

There are 8 simple words to describe my day.
It started about 5th period in Italian when I got a 0 on my quiz. Yup thats right, a big fat goose egg. Isn't that just dandy?

So I went the rest of the day worrying about that, plus the 1789652 other things that I have to worry about every day. AND basically I wasn't feeling good about myself, like at all.

I got my report card though, which was actually a lot better than I expected it to be. Let's see shall we? ...

Religion - 95
English - 97
Global - 90
Italian - 83
Biology - 93
Math - 97
V.P - 93
Music - 97
P.E - 90

Overall :: 93.80

Yea, that was iight I guess, but I went down in a lot of subjects. Whatever. School is gay anyway.

The thing that DID make my day was this ..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dGdm53BXn6w

just, go watch. trust me.
aliya is a fagg and showed it to me.
and made my day better. love you slut.

Concert Friday!

"I wanna be a Jonas Brother!
I'm not gay enough to be a Jonas Brother?! :[ "

Back In Action

I decided that I actually wanna write again. Read it or don't read it - sa'll good. I don't know how much I'll be able to update this cause I've been really busy but we'll see.

What's been new with me lately? Mostly usually absolutely nothing. Canada was a lot of fun but when I came back, yea that wasn't so fun. I've been majorly stressed out the past couple of weeks but hey, what am I gunna do? The perks of being in high school.

Speaking of school sports night was the other week. It was amazing, even though we sucked kinda sorta haha. The sophs juniors and seniors were amazing and the seniors won which is good. The bad part of sports night: it got me so sick.

Yup, the past couple of days I've been home sick with a fever, ear infection, sore throat and stuffy nose. Fun right? Totally. Other than that not much has been going on. I'm so excited for the break though anddd the summer! Can't wait!

So I'm gunna leave you at that.
Adios amigas!

P.S: Nick Jonas is 5 years old :]

Adios 2007.

Okay so I felt the need to post one of these too ..I'm probably leaving out SO much but it's okay cause it's all in my head.

2007.
first off - Best Summer of my LIFE!

- Hawaii with cousin<3 Never ever ever gunna forget that. Thoes kids, we miss em haha. LIKE LIKE! beach everyday. the annoying tour guide. surfing, parasailing, just chillin. NO PETAFILES! scarryy haha. WE WERE SCARED! but then .. apple juice! AMAZZZZZING TANS that I want back sooo bad!Christina, I love you and I'm always here for you babe.

- then Puerto Rico with thoes two hoes that I love to death. I don't think I've had that much fun in forever. Blue shorts gray shorts! Scary as anything! "I don't wanna get raped!" Good thing thoes Canadians protected us<3 haha I miss them. and of course .. ____ and ____ and _____ on the phone every single day/night. Intercontinental<3 Major snack food. Locking Amanda on the pourch. Metro Pol! "They're our friends, they flew in." iPhone ranmblings .. you're not making any sence?! hahah. Best vacation with best friends<3

- of course, all of the concerts. I don't even know if I can name them all from the summer and I'm not even gunna try. But all I know was, there was tears, laughter, and everything in betwen ... but I wouldn't trade any of it for the world. Traveling doesn't even come close to describing what we've done. G&G dance! Coochie! Secrets. Jerseys. "That fatty is probably home eating M&M's" .. establishing the Kevtuplets? V.I.P

- anddddd can't forget the beach club! beeeeeee, you're my life even though you're not gunna read this its all good ahaha. and graduation, prom, parties, throwing me in the pool .. haha never gunna forget that. and of course being bums all day .. that was my life all summer haha. Summer 07 was the abs. BEST.

basically, throughout the whole year I've made such good memories and such good friends. I can't even begin to tell you how much I've changed, for the better. I can tell now that my next 4 years are going to be amazing, thanks to my girlies. And of course Bee, Lau, Amanda & Amanda and all my others<3 ily alll so much, thanks for making this year abs. amazing!

ROADTRIP!

Wow.
2nd row, backstage - j&H!!!!!!!, rockstar dance, BLIZZARDS!, bestfriends<3, AMAZING hugs, screennames = PONED PONED PONED PONED PONED.




PONED :]

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Thanksgiving, Amanders & GMA

Ello! Idk how many of you actually read this but it's all good. Anyway, I'll get straight to it ..

So, since the m&g for the parade was canceled mom and I decided not to go, wich I kinda regret. But anyway, I did watch the boys on TV and they were FANTASTIC. I'm so proud of them. Nick and Kevin killed me .. and Joe's scarf .. oh boy. Haha! Anyway, we went to Aunt Sandy's after we got ready and were there for the whole night. We got home about 12ish and Amanda and Nellie came over at like 1:30 (A.M btw haha). We were both excited to see eachother and just in good moods all around.

So for the night we looked at old pictures, made fun of the boys default with blind Nick and Diana Ross. HAhA! and learned the "Guilty Pleasure" dance. We decided it was pointless to sleep so we started getting ready at like 3:30ish. We left the house at 4:30 and got into the city at 5. Let me just tell you, it was ... gdsahdjhdak. I can't even explain to you how many girls were there! It was PHYSCO! The crowd went from the front of GMA and stretch around the block, all the way down that long city block and across both streets (which were FILLED with people). Amanda and I were in shock and so upset, it was CRAZY.

So I somehow found Amanda (the other Amanda. hahah there are so many Amandas) haha and she got there at 3am. CRAZY GIRL! haha. But I wished her a happy birthday and talked to her for a little while. Then I got back in the car and me and Amanda were so upset and DID NOT want to wait on that huge line because it was pointless and we would have died from the cold being that it felt below zero degrees out. So we were on our way home, but still in the city, and we still really upset but we were kind of second guessing ourselves, wondering if we should stay or not, and making fun of our moms using weird words .. (impose, hot coacoa, and merchandise HAHA). We decided to go back just to see what was going on. On the way back I got a text from Joyce asking what was up.

Anyway, we wound up staying and waiting in the car across the street from the GMA studio so we saw the boys on the big TV while we were in the nice warm car. We waited like, forever. Haha. From like 5 to 9, and we didn't even have to really. But it was all good. So I had to pee really bad and we went into this ghetto McDonalds and me and Amanda almost cried because it was scary. And of course we got hit on in Starbucks by these 2 drunk guys that didn't speak english. HAHA. Plus, we slept a little bit in the car. After the boys were done performing and doing their interview Joyce called again and we huddled up.

The M&G was fast but it was really good. There was only like .. 25/30 people there. And only like 10 fans. Everyone else was like, Chris Koon, Mandy, Mandy's friends, Push Play, all thoes peeps. So I went up to Kevin first and he was like .. heyyy you! how are you?! and I'm like .. I'm good, freezing but good. And he gave me a huge hug and squeezed me so tight and was like well thanks so much for coming and being freezing for us. and I was like, of course! haha. So then I hugged Nick and he was like thank you so much for everything you're the best. and I was like aww you're welcome it's so worth it for you boys. And then .... JOE WASNT AWKWARD TODAY! I was actually really happy about that haha. He gave me a hug and he was like HEYYY! So then while we got ready to take a picture Joe was talking to Nick about something .. and I couldn't fully hear him because he was mubling but I wish I could of because he was like .. "Dude remember last year she... hfjdshfkajhffa" and Nick was like "Of course I remember that. That was old school Jonas" I was like hahaha. But I really wish I would have heard what Joe said. So we took our pic and then Kevin gave me another big hug and rubbed my back and was like we'll see you soon! and I was like yea deff! and he gave me a kiss on the cheek ;]

So Amanda Amanda and I saw Mr. J and spoke to him for awhile about everything that's happened over the past year. How amazing the changes were and how it was just so ... gah. haha. The boys love it and I'm so proud of them. And he was telling us about a few upcoming shows and all that. We were talking about the crowd today and he said something that really got me (in a good way) He was like .. "You know, the crowds now are just a bunch of anonymous faces now, but the boys will always remember the ones that got them where they are and who were there from the begining" So yea, that made me feel so good. And he was telling us how the boys had to run and catch a flight right after this but they wanted to see us. Haha. Oh and all through this convo Frankie was wrestling with Chris which was so cute and so funny. Haha. Anyway, that was basically it. We got home at like 12 and I passsed out as soon as we got in. And I just woke up at like .. 5:30. And now I'm here, and exausted. Haha.

Hopefully I'll see thoes boys soon.
I miss them already.

Z100

Okay, so this is kinda just a reminder of all my JB concerts and stuff so I don't forget hahaha. Idk w.e I don't really update this thing anymore .. it's kinda for just concerts now. Anyway, feel free to read if you want. Sry for the lack of detail. I woke up at 4 this morning and I'm completely dead right now.

so i got there and i wasnt supposed to be let in .. but i got in anway;] hahahahha so i went in andddd they came did sound check and did their interview ... which was hilarious! idk if u listened .. then performed s.o.s, year 3k, goodnight & goodbye and hello beauitful and then it was m&g so i im watiing on line and the girl in front of me goes up to them and as shes hugging nick nick looks at me and gives me a HUGE smile. so i smile back .. so when shes done i go up to them .. (there was NO table!) and i give kevin a hug and hes like HEY YOU! we missed you! and im like i know i havnt seen u guys in so long!!!! so i turn to nick and he opens his amrs .. and okay you know how they give like one arm half hugs kinda things they usually do? well he did totally the oposite he gave me the BIGGEST two armed hug EVER today that lasted about .. 5 mins .. seriosuly no exxageration so im like .dhsahdsak youre freakin ADORABLE and he like squeezzed me hahahah so hes like .. how have you been? and im like im good i missed you guys and hes like i know! so then like i walk over to joe and hes talking to big rob ... like TOTALLY ignoring me .. so im like ... uhh .. hi joe and hes like .. OH HIII!!!!!! and im like hahahahah loser so we hugged and then we all took a pic and im standing like in the middle of nick & kevin . talking to them .. idk where joe was (i really dont talk to him & m&g's =/) .. and i was like .. so i heard you guys saw my brother in law in the elevator at the sony building last night and kevins like .. OMG YES! THAT WAS UR BROTHER?! and im like HAHAH YESSS! he told me he saw you guys! and nick was like thats so funny and the 3 of us were like cracking up but anyway, then i had to leave so theyre like .. WELL SEE YOU SOON! and im like yess! thanksgiving!

EDIT :

hmkay .. so here's the elevator story .. hahaha

so im at my sisters house and my brother in law calls and goes to me .. "which jonas brother do you want me to punch" .. just like that .. no hi or whatsup or anything so im like .. WHAT?!?! none of them!!! why?! and hes like .. just which one do you want me to punch and im like omg none of them! WHY ARE U ASKING and he goes .. well which one do you like and im like all of them and hes like .. whos ur favorite and i go .. uh nick and im like WHY?! so hes like .."well .. my boss is having a meeting with them tonight" im like .. HAHAHAH ARE YOU SERIOUS?! hes like yea! and i WAS DIEING cause thats such a coincidence .. so about like .. 2 hrs later i get another call ... "so, i broke the news to nick" and im like .. WHAT?!? hes like .. "yea i was in the elevator with them and i was like .. so which one of you is nick? and he was like .. i am. and i was like .. well my sister in law is in love with you and they all laughed" and im like HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!! and hes like .. yea they seem like awesome kids and im like I KNOW ARNT THEY SO CUTE?! and hes like .. yea so cute so i was like .. im seeing them tomorrow and hes like ... u have to be like ... "so, i heard you guys were talking to my brother in law in the elevator last night" ..... and then you all know what happened after that ;] hahaha

yeaaaaaa boii :]
check for a new one next week

Brace Face

They're on and I hate them. They still hurt from Saturday and they make my teeth look like grillz. I'm not even used to them yet and I don't think I ever will be. 2 years is way too long. I want them off - NOW!

I'm deff. suffering from withdrawels (sp?). I miss thoes boys way too much for my own good. I guess I'm too attached, but I really can't help it. *sigh* :[ No more to say on that topic, or else I think I'll cry.

Speaking of the boys, I absolutely can't stand that everybody knows who they are. You have no idea how much I hate when I'm sitting in homeroom miding my own buisness and all of a sudden I hear "Nick Jonas or Joe Jonas?! Theyre both sooo hot" It makes me want to smack babies. And the fact that this girl Nicolette (thanks for stealing my name) hates me because my name is Nicolette too and I love Nick .. is a little .. um .. GAY! Get over yourself. teenies need to disappear.

I got my haircut on Sunday. It's medium now and I hate it but I needed to get all the dead ends cut off. I miss the beginning of 7th grade when I had like .. SUPA long long long hair before I cut it all off haha.

Anway, Bee & I also went to the cemetary on Sunday. It was the first time I've been there since last November. I seriously can't believe it's almost been a year already. I think about everything I'm doing now and it's not fair that he isn't here with me. We could be doing so much together. We had so many plans and jokes and ... *sigh* Come on ... what's a girl without her dad?

Hey Freshie

Okay so I've gotta admit, being a Freshman is not as bad as I thought it would be. Actually, it's not bad at all. My schedule is actually pretty good and I've made friends already. So far I don't have THAT much homework, but I know it'll change soon. The only bad things are that I have a bottom locker and that everyone calls you Freshman (which I hate. I have a name you know!) But besides that, highschool is pretty rad.

So, Ryan Scheckler needs to have my kids. Haha. Random fact, but totally true. He's adorable and I love him anddddd the end. And even though his show is totally fake b.s I still watch it because I love him haha. And his tattoo has gotta be the hottest thing in the world. Almost as hot as the Nurls! The end.

Yea, this a really short entry but I just wanted to let you all know I'm not emo anymore :] Even though I still miss the boys, and my bestfriends (I'll be seeing them soon hopefully) I'm doing good. But putting up my pictures in my locker today did kinda depress me. I did take a nap today though! For like the first time since I was 5 haha! Anyway, I'm peacin because I'm still really tired. Goodnight everyone. You shall hear more about my life when something interesting happens.

How To Be Emo ..

The following things will help you on a day that you feel like being an emotional wreck ...

Step 1: Make sure it's the last day of your summer vacation. Cause you know, you're never gunna be able to have any more free time once high school starts kid. And the weekends fly by, so the day before school starts (like today) is a perfect day.

Step 2: Go without seeing some of your best friends for about a month. It makes you really upset and makes you miss them A LOT. So make sure you don't talk to them online or anything either. Because that'll just top the cake.

Step 3: Don't forget to have most of your other best friends live in different states than you. Of course, you met them online and the probability of meeting them in person is slim to none. So have fun thinking about all the fun stuff you guys would do together .. which will never happen!

Step 4: Have three of your favorite boys in the whole entire world be on the other side of the country. Make sure there's NO possible way to get in touch with them. And when they post youtube videos or myspace bullitens/blogs make sure you cry as you watch/read them. And make sure that one curly haired kid that you're madly in love with doesn't return the feelings. Cause youre a fan. And he doesn't do that kinda thing. Instead, he'll stick around that whore, who he doesn't even like half the time and who is a complete bitch to him.

Step 5: The boy you're starting to like in real life, make sure that you guys have just met. Make sure you're cousin isn't best friends with him. It's best if you guys know absolutely nothing about eachother, yet you're attracted to him none the less.

And last but not least ..

Step 6: Start school tomorrow. Be a freshman and not know anyone or anything about your new school. Be the lowerclassmen. Be so confused about what's going to happen this year. Make sure you get LOADS of homework and tests, cause thats totally you're favorite things right?



Okay really sorry to be so negative but I'm in such a bad mood right now. I'm so .. upset I guess you can say. Not mad, more sad than anything. Oh well .. I'll let you all know how tomorrow goes.

Que Bonita Bandera!

Hello everyone! Man oh man do I have stories for you! Most of them involve thoes Jonas kids we all love so much, so I'll get right to it. As you all already know, my best friends and I went to Puerto Rico. We stayed at the Intercontinental in San Juan. It was the most gorgeous Hotel I've ever stayed at in my life. 5 star and everything was just .. gah. Indescribable really. Since our mom's are basically the best ever, they let us get our own room. So, Amanda Amanda and I partied, cause that's just the way we roll.

Our 5 days in Puerto Rico were spent in the gorgeous hotel pool, amazing beach right outside, riding in the hotel elevators, looking for friends (Canadians & Blue Shorts - but Blue Shorts wasn't as nice as we expected and we never got to meet Gray Shorts), ordering Room Service, staying up till 4 a.m, locking eachother out on the porch, eating at the Metro Pol, snacking at all hours of the day, HOLY CRAP RYAN SHECKLER IS A JUDGE FOR MISS TEEENN U.S.AAAAA!!!!!!!!! hdasjhdkanuwhekjdshuskjdhak HAVE MY KIIIDDDDDDSSSSSSS OGOMGOGMGMGOMGGOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. Wow okay sry I get distracted easily. And I love Mr. Sheckler like fdfhkjafnajfa gahh. Anyyyywayyyy, I think you get the point. We had an AMAZING vacation together and thoes Jonas Kids just made it even better.

We got to the venue about an hour before the show started and just walked around a little bit once we were inside. Surrounded by people who spoke Spanish, it was a little awkward for us but we dealt haha. So, we were walking around minding our own buisness and find out if there was a m&g or not when some lady that worked at the venue went up to Amanda and was like .. are you Amanda? so she was like .. yea? and the lady was like .. come with me. So she was like, well what about them? And the lady was like .. I thought there was only one of you? And she was like .. No there's the 3 of us. So the lady made us follow her anyway and she took us down a hallway and into like this door where there were more security guards and more hallways. The other security guard was talking to us in Spanish asking us which of us was Amanda and we were so confused cause we didn't understand him but then he was like .. "only Amanda is supposed to be in here" in english so we were like uhhh .... So we looked around and down the hallway there was a few adults and their kids and all of a sudden we see Kevin come out of one of the side hallways to talk to the people and he glances around and looks at us and his mouth drops. He totally ignored the people he was supposed to be talking to (which I felt bad about) and walked over to us and is like "What are you doing here?!?!" and gave the three of us really big hugs. So then he starts talking to us about the SayNow message and how they got a new phone and all of this random stuff that I don't even remember (he has an iPhone btw haha lucky kid). While he was talking to us Joe came out of that Hallway and was like ... "Wow!!!" followed by Nick haha. So all in all, they were so shocked. After giving us hugs (which were some of the best I've gotten hah) they went to talk and take a picture with the group of people that were there before us.

So we waited a little behind them while and after the boys took the picture we over heard Kevin say to the security guard "can we actually go talk to them. They flew in from the U.S, they're our friends." :] That kid seriously, gah I can't. Haha. Sweetest<3 Anyway, the 6 of us talked for awhile and got a picture and then said our goodbyes. The show was absolutely amazing. We were about 4th row right between Joe and Kevin and we kept getting CRAZY eye contact. AND Kevin did our Goodnight & Goodbye dance, AGAIN. I think it's becoming tradition for him. hahaha. He's such a cute kid though. Anyway, you all get the idea. My best friends and my favorite boys, come on? What could be better than that?

When I got home I had orrientation the next day. It was actually really fun and I'm so exicted to start school. I want to do so many extra activities and I'm so excited to meet new people and experience new things. I actually wanna do Track, which I'm stoked for, and of course Softball. I start on the 6th and I know I'm gunna miss the summer like crazy, but I'm ready :]

And then there's yesterday. Oh what to say about yeserday. Well first off, GIRLS ARE CRAZY. This may sound extreamly mean but I HATE Jonas Brothers fans. I have the few that I love and are my best friends, but other than that I can't stand these girls. They flip out and stalk the boys, including Frankie. They squeal when they touch the tour bus. The cause a stampeed when the boys try to switch buildings. It seriously has gotten so rediculous ....

HAhahahah the boys are performing on Miss Teen U.S.A right now and it's the funniest thing in the WORLD! They sing like 2 lines and then the girls walk out and they just play the background music but I can't explain why I think it's so funny, I just find it hilarious hahah. And Nick did a ltitle S.O.S dance but I don't think Kevin did his. But seriously Joe and Kevin are probably dieing right now with thoes girls hahahaha. Ohh mannnn I can't stop laughing. Thoes boys *shakes head*

ANNNNNYYYWAYYYY, Like I was saying, I can't stand thoes girls anymore. I seriously wanna smack them and be like "theyre just BOYS! Get over yourself!" but I'd get in trouble. haha. So, I just keep to myself and make fun of them with my best friends. Mean? Not really. You just have no idea how much it frusterates me. And I feel so bad for the boys. But enough of that for now, I'll explain the concert. Sooo the m&g was before the show and it was pretty rushed but we dealt. Kevin gave me a huge hug and was like .. "HEY GIRLIES!" hahah. So far we've gotten that 3 times and "LADDIESSSSS!!!" once. Hmm Kev Jay :] Nick was a cutie as usual and then I actually had a conversation with Joe! I havn't really like spoken spoken to him in awhile so it was a little awkward but nice. And he gave me a good hug, so I was happy about that. The show was amazing. Is it ever not? We were 3rd row on Nick's side. Joseph fell. HAHAHAHA. Yea, funny funny FUNNY stuff. And he teased us all by going "The next song we're gunna play is TIME FOR ME TO FLY! No, just kidding haha! We havn't played that in awhile, but maybe some day." Seriously, my heart dropped and I wanted to run up and smack him, but I contained myself. Haha. I wish they played that<3 But I've gotta tell you the best part of that whole show was my Kev smile. During one song Kev was looking around and singing like he usually does. So he scanned the crowd and we made eye contact and he saw me singing along with him and he gave me the BIGGEST smile EVER, with a little head nod to go along. It was seriously the cutest thing in the world.

Sad thing is, that was my last concert until December. I promise you, I'm not gunna make it. I have gotten WAY too attached to these boys. I can't even go more than a week without seeing them, how am I supposed to go 4 months? Everything has changed so much in a year and ... gah I'm seriously just gunna shut my mouth. I talk about all of this way too much and I don't even think I have the words to describe my feelings so I'll just end it here.

I miss the boys already and December can't come soon enough.

Hawaiian Adventures & Jonas Stories

Woo! After an ever-so-tiring 3 weeks I'm ready to write (plus, I'm extreamly bored) and I need to fill you all in on what's new! So here we go!

Hawaii Hawaii Hawaii .. oh man how I wish I was back there. Let me tell you, the 11 hour plane ride there and back was totally worth it. It is deffinitly the most gorgeous palce I've ever been to in my life. When they say it's Paradise they're NOT lieing I promise you. The beaches, the weather, everything is just so amazing. We spent the first week in Kona, the big island, which was pretty fun. It's more for older people and people who enjoy nature and stuff like that becase it's not that busy. We went snorkeling, boogy boarding, on this sight seeing tour, and to the beaches while we were there. Our second week was spent on Ohau, in Honolulu, in Waikiki. THAT was amaing. Waikiki seriously reminded me of L.A. It was like a city with all the expensive stores and everyone was always up doing something. If you like the night life - go there because I absolutely loved it. Again, we beached it up, went SURFING, parasailing, shopping, and it was just so amazing. Plus, we met some pretty funny kids there. Yea they were interesting and stalked Christina and I out in the computer room haha. So all in all, my vacation was absolutely amazing and I deffinitly want to go back.

While I was in Hawaii I just happened to finish Harry Potter 7 in about 3 and a half days. Oh J.K. Rowling, if anyone knows how to make me cry it's you. I don't think I've ever cried over a book before until now. It was the most AMAZING book I have ever read in my life. Everything was so unexpected and it keeps you hanging on the edge of your seat. I'm not gunna ruin it for anyone who didn't read it but ... if you havn't you should go NOW! I'm really sad the series is over now. But hey, at least I have the movies to look forward to with sexy Dan & Rupert. Oh baby.

Speaking of Sexy ... thoes Jonas Kids pretty much top the cake. Which is one small reason why I go through so much trouble for them. What's trouble you ask? Well having your mom suprise you by picking you up from the airport with your best friend in the car and driving to a Jonas Brothers concert, having your car break down 10 minutes before show time and 10 minutes before you get there is trouble. And sadly, that's what happened to us. We got escorted to the concert in a cop car, saw the last 3 songs, went to the M&G, and had dinner with Joyce, Chris, Amy, Jessica, and Rocco while we waited for my cousin to come pick us up in Atlantic City. Some how, something bad always happens, but it always turns out good in the end. Tuff luck I guess?

The next day was Day 1 of the Jonas Partay. Was it amazing? Absolutely. But again, it was bitter sweet. We got there at 8:00 a.m (show time was at 7:00 pm) and there were only about 10 girls in front of us. A few more girls came and we were just sitting there waiting on line. To make a long story short, we got screamed at, told to leave, we weren't allowed to line up until 5:30 and that was that. Naturally, we all got so pissed, but we had to leave or else they would have called the cops. So, we left and went to go see the boys at the South Street Seaport. It was crazy dejavu. They didn't perform, but they did a little appearance and a M&G, but we didn't go. Instead we headed back to the venue and got there by 4. So many more girls were there lined up around the corner, but we go back on our spots becaue of the girl in front of us' mom. Too bad that didn't last long. The girls finally realized that there wasn't a line and began walking around, trying to be first in line when the venur put the barriers up. As soon as 5:30 hit it was a mad dash to the front. Seriously, like a stampeed. The worst rush I've ever experienced in my life. Good thing my best friend is a beast-like hockey player. She got us to the front. A.A.N.A was front row once again, memories? When the show started it was ABSOLUTELY amazing as usual. Thoes boys, seriously, have got to be the most talented kids I've ever met in my life. I seriously don't know how they do it. They were making crazy eye contact with us the whole show and Mr. Nicholas pointed at me during S.O.S' "you & me & no one else" plus, he threw his pick at me, but like a spaz I didn't catch it.

The M&G was unfortunitly, rushed as usual. I had a pretty long conversation with Kevin though. He gave me the biggest hug and thanked me so much. I told him I was so proud of them and it was such an amazing show and he was like "Ah! I know right! Didn't you like ... like all thoes cool lights and stuff?!" and I was like "YESS!!!" and he's like .. "You know where we're going right?" and I'm like .. "No, where?" so he pulls me closer and whispers to me, "Virgin Megastore after this. But I'm not supposed to tell. So you didn't hear it from me. But GO GO GO GO!!" and I laughed and was like "Okay see ya later!" Secrets from Kevin Jonas are my favorite :] Then Nick and Joe weren't really talkative at that M&G but Nick was like, "Thank you so much. Sersiously, thank you for everything" and Joe was kinda being a loser haha. So of course after that, we were off to Virgin!

The boys got there about an hour after us. There were more girls there than I expected and when the boys walked in they got bombarded. I felt really really bad so we stayed back and let them go buy their CD without following them. When they were on their way out of the store we try to get in the crowed to congratulate them and get our CD signed. I found Nick first and he was being yelled at by girls and it was just so crazy. He signed my CD really quickly and appologized, but I said it was fine and congratulated him and took a quick picture. Then he walked by with his security guard. Joe was a little behind him and I did the same thing. Girls were yelling and grabbing him and he looked so scared. I felt really really bad. He signed my CD and we took a picture. On his way past me more girls started to grab him and he was being so adorable. He turned to his security guard and was like "dude, hold me" and looked so scared. I wanted to give him the biggest hug. Haha. It took me a little while longer to find Kevin. Again, he was having girls throw themselves at him. I spotted him as he was trying to walk. He was pretty far away so I called his name, he turned, looked at me, gave me a big smile and cut through the crowd to walk over to me. He gave me another hug and was like thank you so much for coming! I said congratulations and he signed my CD, quick picture, and another fast hug.

After going home, two hours of sleep, and then waking up, Jonas Partay Day 2 was in action. Amanda Amanda and I went into the city with my mom in the morning. Instead of going right to the venue to line up we decided to make a day out of it. We got ready in the bathroom and walked around the city for awhile. After failing at trying to get into TRL and feasting at the other Bobby Vans we decided to go see a movie. The Simpsons Movie was possibly the funniest thing I've ever seen in my life. Spider Pig is my hero. But I guess 2 hours of sleep just didn't cut it for me and Amanda. We fell asleep about a half hour into the movie, and the other Amanda, being that bright little peach that she is decided to let us sleep, only to torment us later. When we awoke (by ice down our shirts) we found out there were about 10 pictures taken of each of us sleeping. Oh how I love my best friends.

Then it was concert time. I'll save you all the trouble of reading and just get to the point. I lost my ticket. So, I didn't get to go. You don't understand how upset I was but hey, you win some you loose some right? Can't always get what you want. So I went home and slept while my best friends partied. Oh well. Jonas Partay Day 3 was good too. We got to the venue at 5 and were the last in line. We danced and partied in the back while the boys performed. Their music is deffinitly party-boy material :] And the sweetest thing in the world was they called up Josh's girlfrind during Please Be Mine to sing to her. A little while into the song Josh came out and proposed. It was the most amazing thing I've ever seen in my life. Did I cry? Heck yes. Haha. No M&G that night, but it's all good in the hood.

The next morning the fun began all over again. We headed out for Mass at around 7. Got there at about 10, got our Starburst wristbands, and were off to the rides. Let me tell you, the 6 Flags Tea Cups and Swings are BEAST! Amanda and I poned it so hardcore. 3 Teacup rides isn't enough for one day. And that Dr. Seuss ride! That owned my life haha! Once it was show time we went into the part of the park where the stage and everything was. We chilled in the back of the V.I.P section, which was closer to the front. We partied MAJORLY. I don't think I've ever rocked out to a Jonas concert as hard as we did that night. It was seriously one of my favorite cocnerts ever. I think it comes second after September 21st<3 It was actually really funny too because we were getting major eye contact from Nick and Kevin and during Goodnight & Goodbye we did our 'up & down & all around' dance and Kevin saw us, and did the same thing! And he was cracking up during S.O.S when we all broke it down Kev J style. After Joe's ... umm ... interesting? dance and Year 3000. We got some drinks and hung out to wait for the M&G. Actually, we hid in a tunnel. I'm not even gunna go into that story.

So Amanda went up first and Kevin looked at us and was like "Heyy Ladiessss!!!!!" which made me giggle haha. Naturally, she had to say something about Kevin's dancing. "Thanks for jacking our dance moves!" was what came out with a laugh then she moved on to Nick and I was next. He gave me a huge hug and thanked me and was like "Dude, do you mean the Goodnight & Goodbye dance?" and I was like "Haaah yea!" and he's like "No you don't understand. I've been watching you girls for like weeks trying to perfect it!" and I laughed again and I was like "Hahah you're doing a good job!" so I moved onto Nick and told him it was my 30th show. He gave me the biggest hug I've ever got in my life. He seriously squeezed me SOO tight and thanked me like crazy. He's like . "You're soooo amazing thank you SOOO much!" and out of no where Kevin was like .. "Are you guys excited for the Hannah Montana tour?!" and I was like "YEA!" (okay, well, I told a little white lie just to make one of my favorite boys in the world happy. Is that such a crime?) and he was like "So are we! It's gunna be amazing!" After that we said our goodbye's. Joe was beeing really awkward. Like, he was looking at me when I was hugging and talking to Nick but when I got up to him he wasn't paying attention and I was being rushed so I had to skip saying hi to him. It's been a little weird but I think it's just cause he's so tired and everything.

We went back to the hotel and had a pretty interesting night. I'll serisouly never forget that day. One of my favorite days in the world. And chilling at the hotel made the day even better. Amanda, Amanda, Me and Nitza in a queen size bed actually wasn't so bad, which I find hilarious. But I seriosuly love my best friends. They make me so happy and I'm so happy I met them. And I don't have anyone else to thank for that besides Nicholas Kevin and Joseph. Thoes 3 boys changed my life so much and I'm so happy about that.

Anyway, time to talk about the CD! ITS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING! I own 3 copies right now haha. It'll probably end up 5 like last year, but I'm not complaining! Everything on it is so fadhfahjfhdkjaf gosh I can't even explain it. And even though Goodnight & Goodbye is my favorite song performed live, Games, Hollywood & Inseparable are my favorite on the CD. Mostly Games, but I love all 3 of thoes so much. Heck, I LOVE THE WHOLE CD SO MUCH! Haha! I already miss the boys. It's pretty sad how attached I am. But I see them in a week so I'm stoked! It stinks that after this month I won't see them till Decemeber, but freakin Miley will see them every day. *screams* I hateeeeee herrr! Okay. I'm done. Haha! This blog is long enough to keep you all reading FOREVER. If you actually read the whole thing I'm so proud! Hahah!

"And game over, you're done. Out of left field we won. Pack our bags. Yeah, we'll run. Hollywood here we come."

I'm Leaving, Goodbye!

Yes, the title is appropriate. In about a half hour I'll be on my way to New Jersey. I'm spending the night with my cousin Christina and then in the morning we're off to Hawaii! Two weeks without a computer is gunna be rough, but I'm gunna try to manage. So I decided that I wanna write something to everyone who reads this blog. So, here goes.

Alllllyyyyyysonnnnn - Please don't cry. Haha. I love you and you'll survive without me. Have fun dog-sitting and make sure you keep me updated with comments and a whole buncha love. I'm gunna miss your face boo bear. But just think, when I come back we'll have Jonas 3 days in a row. Wanna say PARTAYY with non rushed meet & greets? I love you 10 cent and I'll miss youuuuuuu!

Kevtuplets - I LOVE YOU ALL IMMENSE AMMOUNTSSSSSS! Fer seriously, I'm gunna die without our chats. Make sure you send me LOADSS of fluff to read and all the dts hahahaha. I love you girlies. Mandaaa, have fun at your concert! Don't forget to tell me everything! Lin, ohhh mann. COOKIES. the end :] .. Biffle & Quadruplet, keep me updated on everything! I love you all so much and I'm gunna miss you like cuhrayzeee!

Hot Pants - I'm so happy we're talking more and I can't wait to keep our conversations going once I get back! Tell everyone on the boards I miss them and I'll talk to you on the 4th!

Julersz - Muahahha. Be prepared for major texting tomorrow! I'm excited for it! Potter-ness. Oh man. <33

And anyone who reads this blog that I don't know about - I'll miss you! And if you read this and I don't know, leave me a comment so I know you read it! I like comments! Talk to you all when i get back!

HP & JB, All I Need!

A long awaited update is finally here! Dun Dun Dunnnnnnn! Muahah. Warning: It shall be mostly about my 2 Obsessions .. Jonas & Potter. If you have a problem with either or both of thoes topics please exit to your top right hand corner. Thanks and have a nice day.

Last time I left you all was the day before my birthday, aka - the day Harry Potter 5 came out in theatres. Amanda, Laura and I went to go see it at around 2ish or so. Anyway, it was amazing. The 5th book is my favorite so far and the movie was good, but I'm not gunna lie ... I was expecting more. But because the book was so detailed and so much stuff happened they had to cut most of it out of the movie. But I loved the flashbacks and Harry's dreams, that stuff was pretty cool. And when Sirius died, oh man don't get me started. Almost cried. I'm actually suprised I didn't since I cried when Cedric died. Daniel and Rupert, man oh man are they sexy. No, seriously. I can't even think of any other word besides sexy haha! Like um hello Rupert sleeping in a tank-top in bed (with me), come on man that's freakin hot! Haha! I wanna meet the both of them so bad. I love them immense ammounts. The end. Haha!

I'm seriously freakin out about the 7th book. I'm gunna have to buy it when I'm in the airport, since I'll be on my way to Hawaii when it comes out. Haha! But yes, I've heard rumors about one of the people who's gunna die (no, not Harry) and how and man I was FLIPPING out. I really hope it's not true, but if it is oh gosh I'll ... I'll ... I can't even think about it fer seriosuly. But I am so freakin excited for this book you dont understand. Oh and the past two days I've been re-reading the Half Blood Prince and I'm almost done haha got like 4 or 5 more chapters and thats it. Onto the Deathly Hallows!

And as for today, well today was an adventure. I seriously can't even begin to describe how happy I am for these boys. They've grown and matured so much in everything since 2005 and they deserve every single thing they're getting. I'm seriously so proud of them. And to know that I've been with them for so long and helped them become what they are today makes me feel so amazing. Saying this new CD is gunna be amazing would be the understatement of the century. There's so many awesome special effect and stuff and CD VU+ is the coolest thing I've ever seen in my life. The pictures and video's on the CD are absolutely amazing. Well anyway .. on to my day ...

We got stuck in crazy crazy traffic and didn't get into the city until 2 and a half hours after we left my house. The normal ride there is like a half hour, 45 mins tops. The boys got delayed because of the weather and problems with their flight so they took a helicopter to the westside (which I actually find really funny, Jonas rides in style haha!) So we got there and went to get our wrist bands and then went inside. The 'Hold On' video was playing on like all of the TV's in there which was REALLY cool. And we saw the world premier of the S.O.S video. I'm gunna be completely honest and tell you that what I saw of it (it wasn't the whole thing, just the short version) I can tell it's gunna be my favorite video of theirs. It's got a story line to it so it's not just them performing, and it's SOOOOOO funny. I'm seriously so excited to see the whole thing. And, the begining killed me. Nicholas, oh man. After the video we got to see all of the things that would be on the new CD VU +, which everything is amazing. And then the boys came out and spoke for a little while and took pictures for the press. We chilled and got to explore the CD VU+ thing a little more, which seriously is the best thing in the world, and then it was M&G time.

Joe was normal Joe. He was all "HEYY!" when I went up to the table and he signed my stuff and gave me a hug. But it was funny cause the girl before me, when she went to go get a picture with them Joe backed away as soon as the lady was going to take the picture and he sneezed! It was so funny and so cute at the same time I was like awww haha blesss you Joe! Then Nick, ohhh Nick. Well, I found out why he's been pretty quiet lately. But I don't really feel like I should go spreading that around so I'll just keep it private. But man, that kid means so much to me. Anyway, when I got up to him I was looking down at the thing Joe just signed and I looked up at Nick and he was holding his arms out and ... gah just seriously the cutest kid I've ever met in my life. I love him. Like, a lot. But as much as we all know I love Nicholas, I gotta admit ... Kevin took the cake today. We were talking for a loooooooong time. About the CD and about last year. Nick was listening in but didn't say much and Joe was just out in left field somewhere. But yea, we had a pretty intense conversation and I just love thoes kids so much. I love just being able to talk to them and being able to hug them and just being able to share these experiences with them. It makes me feel really good. I love them. That is all.

Hawaii on Saturday!

Celebrate Good Times, COMEON!

Haha yes ... I'm ALIVEEE! I've just been verrrry busy lately .. and this blog will tell you what interesting things I've been doing with my life the past weeek.

Amanda and I are bums. We sit in my room all day and go on the computer ... in our pajamas. And even though we have no friends because noone comments us on myspace, we insist on refreshing the page and checking if we've gotten anything 'New' Losers much? I think so. But yes, sadly thats what we've been doing all week.

So last time I blogged was on the 4th of July. The next day Amanda, Ally and I went to Six Flags to see the boys. At first we were gunna wait in line but then we ssaid screw it, so we went on rides with Renee and basically it was the better choice. We had so much fun. We saw the boys walking around the park and unfrtunitly there were a few girls chasing them. But we saw them, they saw us, they waved, we waved, and we moved on. Because we're NORMAL people. And it was also REALLLY fun to see how much some 'date' kinda thing sucked for some people. Not gunna mention any names but yea Amanda and I created our own home-made video. Do we CELEBRATE GOOD TIMES? We sure do. All I can say is .. PONED.

Then on the 7th was the Jonas/Jesse show. Umm one of my favorites? Yesssssir! The boys performed AMAZING as usual and Jesse is just as amaaazzzing but the M&G was fantabulous. Joseph was all .. "Can I getcho Numba???" and like a stupid sluttly whore she gave it to him. Ass. Hahaha. Anyway, Nicholas flipped out about the wiffle ball bats because well .. we're just that awesome. Hahha. He came out from aruond the table and was like hdasjhdakjdhakj! hahaha. Yea it's really good to know that the boys love us :]

And basically other than thoes two shows we've been bums. Wake up, computer, eat, computer, shower, sleep, repeat. That's how it's been going. Haha. Miss the boys already. Can't wait till the 18th. Alrightie now we're off to go watch some more old vids. *tear* Nicholas, I miss ur opera voice. Hahaha!

MY BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW! <3

Happy Birthday U.S.A

I need to write a blog cause I havn't written one in awhile. Well, I havn't really been up to anything lately and this blog is gunna be really boring as usual cause idk what to write right now and my arms hurt from carrying my nephew around all day haha.

So, I went to Jersey last week to spend a few days with my family. Got a new phone and some new clothes from Pac Sun which was sweet. We went to the beach and went bowling and chilled the whole weekend. Mike and I played DDR at the bowling alley and I poned at it. I want it. Haha.

Amanda's staying at my house for 2 weeks which pretty much makes me mucho happy. Espically her random twitches in the middle of the night. She insists that bugs are eating her insides. I just think shes crazy. And now I'm laughing as I write this while I look at her sit on the other side of my bed with a towel on her head, reading the latest addition of Popstar.

It's pouring rain right now with thunder and lightning and I'm smiling a whole lot. Muahaha. Anyway, today was the 4th of July. Woo. Happy Birthday U.S.A! Well, not really 'birthday', but you know what I mean. Amanda, Amanda, Ally and I went to the beach club today. It kinda sucked cause the weather was lame but we still had fun. And we make a really amazing movie in Spanish which was ... interesting.

Speaking of Birthdays ... mine's soon! 8 days to be exact! Gahhhh WOO! haha. Oh, and I'm seeing Jonas at 6 Flags again tomorrow. And it'll probably rain. I love the rain. Muahaha.

Snapple Fact: Only Male Turkeys Gobble.

Jonas Shows & Sleep Overs

I'm alive! Yessssss! And it's now time for an update! My weekend was absolutely amazing. Saturday Allyson came over and we just chilled all day. She made me watch Free Willy and then we bought FRIENDSHIP SHOES! and rented 'Life Is A House'.

We woke up around 5 on Sunday morning. Got ready and were on the road by 6:15. About 3 hours later we were smelling the sweet chocolaty goodness, haha. Hershey Park pretty much owns my heart now. We met up with Taylor, Sara and Katie and hung out for awhile. Had some lunch and went on a few rides. We stopped by the merch table to get everything organized and sold a few things. Finally, show time. The boys were fantastic as usual. Especially Joe's sweaty back. Hahaha. Then it was time to merch. Trust me, that job is harder than it looks. It was so fun though. The girls and I had a blast with it.

Before we knew it it was almost time for the second show. We snuck out for a few minutes to grab something to eat and then went back to merch. The second show was just as amazing as the first. Nick did Nick J, which was my first time seeing it live. I know I'm probably leaving out a lot of stuff but I'm tired right now and I don't remember it all. Oh, and Joe broke one of his tambo's haha. It was pretty funny. After the show it was M&G time. It was pretty rushed but I got pictures and I got the boys to sign the new poster, which is absolutely gorgeous might I add. Once the M&G was done we went back to merch for a little while and then we had to leave. But, before we went back home Taylor, Sara, Katie, Ally and our parents went on Hershey's Chocolate tour, where Nicholas, Joseph and Kevin sang to us about milk, yummy. Hahaha. After the ride we bought some souvineres (sp?) and then said our goodbyes and headed home.

Monday we woke up around 12 and watched the Lizzie McGuire movie. Gordo is a hottie ;] We started to get ready around 3ish after eating some yummy Chinese food. We got to Jersey at 6 and waited around for awhile before they let us in. AND I SAW THE KID FROM 'SCHOOL OF ROCK!' The one that plays the gayish kid Billy in School Of Rock, yea he was at the JB concert. I'm more than 100% sure it was him. Gah, I should have asked him haha. Anyway, doors finally opened and we got our wrist bands and stuff and went in. Phil was there which made me really happy. He played his set and Nick came out during 'I Want You Back' again. My second time seeing that ;]

Then it was time for the boys to play. They were amazing, like always. Halfway through the show the power blew, so they we're gunna play a few acustic songs but all the crazy fans rushed the stage and wouldn't shut up .. so the boys had to leave until the power got fixed which took like a half hour. They finished their set and Nick did Nick J, again, which kind of bothered me. The show was pretty good, but the M&G was terrible. I did get really good Nick and Joe hugs though :]

After everything was done we headed back to Sara's house, which is gorgeous by the way. Her room is amazing and I want it haha. We stayed up and talked for awhile until we all got tired enough to go to bed. Nick was there with his invisibility cloak. Hahaha. Taylor Ally and I were pretty interesting .. that's all I've got to say about that. Hahah. The next day we woke up and hung out and Ally and I left and went into the city to meet my mom. The rest if pretty much history. Ally went home today and I went swimming when she left. Now I'm here writing this, and I'm tired, and this is really long, soo ...

Goodnight & Goodbye<3

EDITTTTTT - So I totally forgot to add the part about Joseph singing to my mom at the Hershey show. Yea, a good 10 second stare down while he was singing. He was smiling and sining to her, and it was the funniest thing EVER. Sometimes I think the boys and Papa J like her more than they like me! Haha.